My fascination vs my laziness.

It is hard to describe me, I am very lazy but I work hard. I get easily fascinated by alluring things, but the fascination reaches the peak soon and then it is my laziness that wins the battle. I am very dedicated but I easily get diverted. One day I could work for 16hrs and the other day sleep for 16hrs. Things are quite capricious with me. In this peregrination of life, of 20yrs, I have witnessed so many such cases that I would need scads of paper to list them down.

To bolster my statement I would cite one example. I have never been in the habit of reading and writing, but during my vacations after the first year of engineering I got “fascinated” with the Harry Potter motif. Wasting no time, eager to read I downloaded all of the Harry Potter e-books. Before I continue I would like to clear one thing, I have never been in the habit of reading. I don’t have the patience to read paragraphs longer than half a page. While reading I get restless, I would be more interested to know what is happening on the road, I would probably start day dreaming about a movie I saw the previous night or maybe I would just move into the kitchen to gulp in something. If all these weren’t enough to hamper my reading I would switch on the television and watch a movie while I “read” the book. For those who don’t know me well and also for those who think they know me well, I would like to clear one fact today that the same happens with me whether I read a novel or a curriculum text. My ideal posture to read would be, lying on my cozy bed with the book just near my head so that it could serve me as a pillow incase I slept.

Coming back to the most widely read book, Harry Potter. I hardly knew anything about the theme of this book and the only thing I knew was that this book has attracted a lot of readers worldwide. While casually surfing on the web for some e-book, I came across Harry Potter-1 and for the sake of it I downloaded it and gave the first few pages a perfunctory look. Ah! What do I see; this book has all supernatural characters and talks a lot about MAGIC. I have always loved magic and supernatural stories. I remember, when I was a kid I never missed a single episode of Shaktimaan- the show had millions of fans. I always fantasized myself as some superhero with enormous power, and I enjoyed playing with those powers. So I guess now you understand how much I am fascinated by fiction. It is this penchant of mine, for fiction, that I read the first book, from the Harry Potter series, in 3 days with an average of 10hrs reading per day. Soon I downloaded all of the then available books in the series. I was very excited and I had almost forgotten the fact that I was lazy and I didn’t like reading. My zeal then, for reading the book was so high that I wasn’t disturbed by the road-side noises, by intermittent day dreams or even by the desire to eat. I was almost in the magical world and had become a part of the Hogwarts-the magic school. I memorized the spells and would defeat the most feared Lord Voldemort, of course, in my fantasies.

Soon after the first book I started off with the second and completed it though with a subdued interest. Now the villain, not Voldemort but my “laziness” woke up from its dormancy and casted spells of boredom on my reading. I started the third book, but this time the very same computer seat seemed uncomfortable. I got easily distracted by the hustle and bustle on the road, I got hungry very soon and could not concentrate well in my lectures at Hogwarts. Gradually my laziness gained strength and just after reading first few chapters of the third book I closed the adobe reader. Since then I haven’t read any novel. My laziness dominated my penchant for fiction.

This was just one example, of many, where my laziness took over my fascination. I have seen the same happen with my guitar, body-building, designing etc. Now what’s next? This blog?